prayer for now

Dear God, why?? Maybe you think I am stronger than what I am... Can't I catch a break... Will this life ever get easier.... I don't know what to do. Sometimes I just feel like I'm always trying to stay afloat, trying to keep from drowning. I know you have my back, intact you stand in front of me and lead me. But at times why does it feel like your so far from me. I draw close to you, I want to follow and I seek you and yet I feel your hard to find. Dear God can I catch a break, can I please have things fall for my interest at heart. I know you hear my prayers, I know you answer my prayers I just wish I didn't feel like I was always waiting. Please God I am asking you hear my hearts cries pour out your blessings upon me and my daughters, we live for you and you alone. Dear God pour out your blessings upon my youth, let them see your love through me. Let them know they matter and they were put here for purpose, please God build up my daughters at home and my center youth to be strong children, teens and one day adults that serve you, love you, live for you. Teach them how to make their bodies a temple for you to dwell in. Father God use me, I don't want to be on this earth without purpose, take my mess and make it a message take my tests and make them my testimony help me to follow you each and every day that I live. Amen