ugh

so here is my reality as I sit here today, I am really depressed, I have been crying nightly for a week, why? Who knows! I guess really it all boils down to dissapointments. I guess at some point I just figured I would catch a break at somepoint. It seems I can't get anything right for those around me when I feel like all I am trying to do is live to make those around me happy and yet in it all I feel I am losing peices of myself, with every piece I give I get weaker and weaker and my drive and passion for life gets slower and hopeless. All the things I dreamt about when I was younger I feel are passing me by. God I am sooo confused, I don't understand, when can I get a break in this life? Can you please just tell me what my purpose is? This can't be it? I am bored in life and need more. Mostly God I am hurting and I feel alone in life that's filled with people and it's chaotic all around me. Who is Miki suppose to be? I am bored with where I am, do you have more for who I am to be, or will I always feel so empty.