Dear God,

Sometimes I sit and say to myself, "I know this cannot be God's plan" , "Okay God I am ready for you to step in and make some changes" but what if it is your plan?? What if the hurt I am feeling because I will work on Thanksgiving and Christmas and Christmas eve is just the selfishness of myself and not the selflessness of my heart. What would I hear if I was really listening and opened my ears to not only the things I want to hear but to whatever you have to say. You know my hearts desires even better than I do and you know why you made me and placed me on this earth, I know that you have a plan for me. Help me to listen to your words and take them all in the even the stuff I dont want to hear. My deepest hearts desire is to live the life you have set aside for me to live. I was fearfully and wonderfully made, each day is new and I want to live all my days for you. Help me to have a better understanding of your desires for me. Dear God heal my broken heart and let me understand your ways. Thank you for listening God now its my turn... I am waiting!