Just another day.

Today was a day at work that I was blessed to see how lucky I am. Not just for my daughters I have at home that I love and adore beyond words. But I received not 1 call today from an old resident but 2 calls today from old residents.
 This is not out of the ordinary as I have a few that call me to check in, or to talk because they have something going on. I honestly feel like these are MY kids and as far as I a concerned they are. So these two that called today and at different times are special and unique in there own way. The girl we will call "J" she has struggled a lot in life and not had the easiest life. I have had her several times at the juvenile center at she sometimes calls two times a week. Now at a residential treatment center way up north I think she doesn't have anyone to talk to. Sometimes she has something on her mind and sometimes she just wants to chat. Please pray that she find her value and her worth and know that she is loved by God. Pray that she see's the beauty God created in her and that he heal the pain from her past. She is a sweet girl.
The second kid that called is boy that I have had the opportunity to watch grown, literally. Over the past years he was my size and he is now 6'3 towering over me and yet he is still "lil ****". He was always my sidekick in helping with bulletin boards and help out with what he could. He has been gone at a residential placement for about 9 months and just started calling about 2 weeks ago. He is a great kid, smart and great personality and I am worried for him when he gets out of the center he is in because its going back to the community that he will struggle with. Pray that he is a STRONG leader and does whats right. Pray that he see's his God given talents and that he uses them.
I LOVE THESE KIDS!!

I am so thankful that I am able to work with the youth at church and I am praying about how I can do more with them and invest more with them. Hoping that I can go have lunch with some of the girls, have a sleepover sometime. I love that God put youth in my heart. LOVIN IT!

As many of you know I have been searching for a position where I can have better hours so that I may see my girls more but I MUST work with the youth in Benton Harbor. That is where God placed my heart that is where he has called me so I wont just leave for any job and I know that when it is the right position God will open the right door. Until then I know he wants me where he has me. So if you can keep that in your prayers. Also financially keep me in your prayers. Also I have a strong desire to foster a child and possibly adopt at some point but I do need different hours because I need to be able to be home. Please pray about this. (Of course I laugh and say good thing I never win the lotto because I would be the lady with like 10 kids/teens).

A vision that was born in my heart 20 years ago....

   I grew up with parents that were on the worship team. My dad played the drums and my mom sang and played the keyboard. My mom always played worship music in the house. So this may be where my love for worship began. Its when I feel the closest to God. Its when I hear him speak and I see the visions that he puts in my head. I will sing for hours and hours on end to be close to him. But really I can remember a time in worship when I was in middle school and we were on our fall retreat with Tree of Life and during worship we were singing the song "Open the eyes of my heart Lord, Open the eyes of my heart. I want to see you, I want to see you" During this song I remember stopping singing and I remember just taking it all in and with my hands lifted to the heavens I saw myself standing in front of a crowd of teens and I was speaking to them. I have never forgot that vision. For many years I didn't realize how important it was. I knew it was a vision that God placed in my heart but why? I mean who was I and what could I possibly say that was of any importance. But ya see God knows the paths that we will take. He knew I would fall of course for sometime and I would make some horrible choices that would have a huge impact on my life but he also knew how they could be used and he knew his plans for me. So as I continue down the path of life and now in the last year desire to make him the center of it all. I desire to live in his image and desire to raise daughters who love the Lord. To find a husband who shares the passions that I share and a man that love the Lord more than anything in his life. Its amazing the healing that goes on when you give it all to him. God is still working on me and I know he has big plans. I choose to be obedient to him. For his plans for my life are far greater than I could ever dream up or imagine.
  So I am beginning to see more of that vision that God placed in my heart many years ago.  Thank GOd for all he does and all he is doing, pray to him, read his word and sing to him praises and worship him. Its amazing how God speaks to us. Be open, don't set boundaries, open up and let him pour in and he will. When you do you cannot get enough you will desire more of him.