Who would have thought...

So almost 4 years ago I entered into a relationship that at the time I saw a true, and good. Now almost four years later I realize looking back many things, one being I had blunders on in some aspects and two that I am not sure I was searching for the right thing. You know I was the single friend with two girls, at functions I was the odd one out. No significant other here. So let's go on a journey back... What I think lead me into the relationship was the idea of a "family" and the "perfect home" and the "it cars" and "family vacations" I mean is true love that important, is finding someone who treasures you and adored you that special. Can you really find someone who shares the joy in your Passion.... So to make a long story short throughout the years I am sure it will come as no suprsie to you that the relationship began to fall apart... Or maybe it never really came together. So a little over a year ago I began to pray to God "Dear God please help, either mend our hearts together or God slowly detach my heart and make it easy for me to leave." Totally expecting God to mend our hearts this September there I was ready to move on, not sad about it but ready. Now I would be lying if I said I didn't go through heartbreak, you see I did, it was for the last year, while in the home. Although my heart was breaking I was still in the home, and as my heart broke and I grew away I felt healing. So this September moving out was the happiest time of my life. I felt like I started to get me back I found who I was and I was ready to live and embark on that. So here I am living life and it may not look picture pwerfect to many but it feels great to me.