Seek Him

When I remember the old times.... I also remember how God always made a way, he always came through. I lived my life in the gutter lane for a while, at times I would begin again and try to stay on the lane but I kept ending up in the gutter. I always grew up in church and I knew there was a God who loved me and who watched over me, and looking back its so apparent that I had his arms around me keeping me safe. But in my late teens decided to take my own path, I "bought" what the world sold me that I had to be beautiful, and sexy, I threw myself down to be the welcome mat to all those that would take me. I got so caught up in what money bought and playing a part, I began drinking my years away, which then lead into strong alcohol and drug addictions. My life was wasting away before my eyes. I listened to the lies the devil told me. How could what I was doing be so wrong? I was Happy? I felt confident? I found love? Yes, those were statements I just made but also questions because what I found out later as that they were lies that were masked with temporary feelings of Happiness, Self Confidence, Beauty, and popularity. I KNEW there was a God and yet I was so far off track because I was seeking to find all those things in the world and not in God. Had I only sought out God I would have found more of him, I would have found happiness and confidence in who I was and realized some of the things I was seeking was not what I needed. Although in my life I have strayed at times and gone after the things of the world, I end up here and now, wanting to know Him (Christ) more, wanting to live my life in his image, and that's the great thing. My slate has been washed clean!