Confirmation

last night at church was very weird for me. When I first went into the service to find my seat and sit down I had a nervous feeling in my stomach but tried to ignore it. I then went to find a seat and ended up sitting in the second row two seats down from a reserved seat. As I am sitting there (before service starts) I continue to have an even more nervous feeling. Then the person that winds up sitting down in the reserved seat is security. Okay let me clarify somthing before I go any further. It is very common for a church of our size to have security for the safety of the us the church. No they do not wear yellow shirts with the words security across the back. In fact if you didnt know we had security you may have just thought this guy was erally dressed up and happens to be packing (carrying a gun). So anyhow.... the fear that has set in to me now for some reason went into overtime. I was having these horrible thoughts going through my head, that something bad was going to happen. The fear was so great that I had started to think that I should leave. I wanted to leave. I wanted to go downstairs, pick up the girls and get the heck out of there. However that same fear kept me in my seat. Needless to say I stayed and Jason had eventually gone up and begun to preach. Now if you dont know already we have been learning about the ten commandments at church and last night he taught on "Thou shalt not kill". He also spoke on anger. But the raelly weird thing is he talked about cuttting something out of his life so that he had more time to spend with God, Quiet time. So he says.... I know this may seem childish but for me it is the television that I cut out of my life. Okay talk about jaw drop to the floor. Considering this is exactly what I have been praying about this past week and that I cut tv out of my life. I was fasting tv. For me it was confirmation that what I was doing was right. It was just like Gods way of saying your on the right track!
So now I wonder were my thoughts of fear because the devil didnt want me to hear that message and he was counting on me reacting to my fear and thoughts of getting up and leaving?? God is so amazing and he speaks in so many ways, last night I heard confirmation from him, that I was on the right track.