A vision that was born in my heart 20 years ago....

   I grew up with parents that were on the worship team. My dad played the drums and my mom sang and played the keyboard. My mom always played worship music in the house. So this may be where my love for worship began. Its when I feel the closest to God. Its when I hear him speak and I see the visions that he puts in my head. I will sing for hours and hours on end to be close to him. But really I can remember a time in worship when I was in middle school and we were on our fall retreat with Tree of Life and during worship we were singing the song "Open the eyes of my heart Lord, Open the eyes of my heart. I want to see you, I want to see you" During this song I remember stopping singing and I remember just taking it all in and with my hands lifted to the heavens I saw myself standing in front of a crowd of teens and I was speaking to them. I have never forgot that vision. For many years I didn't realize how important it was. I knew it was a vision that God placed in my heart but why? I mean who was I and what could I possibly say that was of any importance. But ya see God knows the paths that we will take. He knew I would fall of course for sometime and I would make some horrible choices that would have a huge impact on my life but he also knew how they could be used and he knew his plans for me. So as I continue down the path of life and now in the last year desire to make him the center of it all. I desire to live in his image and desire to raise daughters who love the Lord. To find a husband who shares the passions that I share and a man that love the Lord more than anything in his life. Its amazing the healing that goes on when you give it all to him. God is still working on me and I know he has big plans. I choose to be obedient to him. For his plans for my life are far greater than I could ever dream up or imagine.
  So I am beginning to see more of that vision that God placed in my heart many years ago.  Thank GOd for all he does and all he is doing, pray to him, read his word and sing to him praises and worship him. Its amazing how God speaks to us. Be open, don't set boundaries, open up and let him pour in and he will. When you do you cannot get enough you will desire more of him.