God is this what you want??

So I have been without job for a couple months now. My boyfriend who I live with takes care of the bills. Sure it's great but for myself it was scary and a big step.. stepping out relying on another human other than myself. Because I had been let down by so many from this place we call earth. I had begun to really only trust myself. I would show only peices of me and share small parts. But no one really knew cause there is sooo much more. So taking my trust and really allowing for someone to take care of me is/ was scary. For the past couple of months I have had an amazing time with my girls and watching them grow. I have had lots of thinking time and praying time. I know that I want to work but it is about finding the right job.
So I had been going online to look at the jobs that Berrien County has and for the last 5-6 months Juvenile Youth Specialist has been up. I have just gone back on forth about if this is somthing God wants me to do. I would constantly say .. "God is this what you want?" It's like I feel as if the last month and half I have known that it is but I think, I cant do this. I mean at times these kids have to be taken down, and it's got alot that you take home, how do you leave it at the door. I am not sure and I still am thinking, okay God I am going to apply, but I hope your right about this.

My prayer now...... Please father God if this is your will and plan for my life, lead me, give me strength, be by my side, give me words of wisdom, peace, and put my passion to use to give you glory. I put my faith in you and your will for my life and if this be it at this time. You lead and I will follow!