Reflecting on the past can be good!

So I was reading through old blogs on "my" myspace and I ran across this one.....


Friday, February 22, 2008

wearing a mask ehhh....

So you know I have realized that it is somthing spread amongst women and men all over. I know that it is the truth for women and so I am guessing that it is for men as well. Why is it, in todays culture we feel the need to be soo strong and to appear at all times that we have it all together. We wear these masks, well I took mine off a while back now because to be honest it SUCKED! So I am not sure how you feel if you are a man but I can say to woman is that you try to pretend that being a mommy is pure bliss.... it is hard at times becuase you miss being you and being able to just pick and go whenever and whereever you want. Sure these little stinkers are better than anything and you wouldnt change it but it is hard. Why are so many mothers afraid to admit it?? Because they feel that they then will be looked at as if they failed. No your not failing that is motherhood, it is not easy. Or how about relationships??? Are you trying to act like your relationship or marriage is just WONDERFUL but at times you fear your spouse is cheating, or you dont feel like he wants to spend enough time with you??? Is married life just not as exciting as you thought but you sure want everyone else to think that you couldnt be happier??? Look the truth is admitting that this is the case in ANY situation in your life is not failure, it's failing when you fail to admit the truth and are hiding behind the HAPPY face. This is real life this what everyone expieriences in some part of their life. So wouldnt it be easier to just say whats really going on and find out that you are not alone and then talk with people who are in the same situation. I am far from being perfect and having it together, I go to bed many nights crying. But I for one, know that I am not alone because I hear from real people who are going through the same things. After I have said "HEY, this is whats going on" I found that so many people are in the same place. I now have a support system and I have God. It is getting eaiser because I am not doing it alone. I encourage you to take off your mask.... to not care what people think and you will be amazed at the support you
find. You dont have to be alone!!


- I have been living a raw me and I am finding that it works, its so much easier, no hiding and being open. So when I re-read this post I was proud of myself and where I am at. Sure "life" is still life but being me, unedited, raw, just the way God made me...has made a world of a difference.