the message was about basically managing your money and also what you put your trust in God or Money???? I can say that I dont have trust in money and I dont lean on it. funny the message was, what it was because on my way to church this morning I am driving saying God I am not sure how my bills are going to get paid but I know that you will provide. I mean no joke. I currently have no job and left my previous job becuase it was tearing my spirit down and not to mention by the time I got home I had two hours at night with my daughters. I turned down the postions at Madison center because they were second and third shift. I would never see my kids. I out my family first and I am not willing to sacrafice that and I am not willing to work Sundays or Thursday nights or Tuesday nights. Those are my growing nights and my commitment I have made to God. So today on my way to church I get my electric bill of .. I think 235 or somthing along with all kinds of junk mail that came yesterday. I litterly put in $5 of gas on my card and $2 of gas in change. I think I may have 30 cents or so. I have no job and I have an electric bill that needs to be paid, rent will be coming up on March 15th and I am not sure how God is going to do it. I really need a job and have filled out application after application and turned in resumes. Am I going to have to sacrafice the hours I am willing to work? funny thing is I may actually be in the negative because when I went to get gas this morning they had a sign that said Credit Card or Debit Card purchases must be $5 wouldnt you know it. I honestly had $4.99 so will the bank charge me the 37.50 overdraft charge??? I guess I could have stayed home...but I just know that a job is going to come and that God is going to provide for me.
So all this brings me back to budget???? right now I just need money to pay my bills. These are the times I wish I had done things the right way, like going to college and then get married then have kids. I just wish that I had the money to just go to school full time and get it done and then get a job.
God I dont lean on money, I am leaning on you and to be honest it's all I know to do. You have always provided for me and all though I do not know how it may come or who may come calling I know that, that job will come. You are so faithful and through out my life and the many let downs I have been through from people here on this earth, you have never. Thank you for everything you have blessed me with and thank you for the blessings you are working on now.
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