My not so perfect life

Those of you who have been following my posts or who have the unlucky honor of rambling on the phone with me for hours already know how I am learning how to come to terms that I am not and will not be perfect. Trying to be perfect always seemed like somthing that I had been longing to try to be. Which meant I had to mask all of my "mistakes" or I had to atleast try to act as if I was perfectly strong and that they didnt bother me. Well in the need to try to be perfect I found myself very dicouraged, stressed and depressed. Now that I realize that God is not asking me to be perfect and that I am ot going to be, I have focused more on just trying to be the best me I can. I have realized I cant have everything I want, my house can not always have fresh vacume lines in the carpet (really I have a one year old and a almost five year old) and that growing takes time. Because I realize these things I have found that I have become more content with who I am. I mean really I am the kind of person that everything has a spot and needs to be in that spot and I get great anxiety when I go to bed at night knowing things are not in their place and it all stems because I want to be in control. But I am not in control God is and that is the great thing about it. I know I can trust God that he will take care of me and my family. So I am learning to let go of trying to be the one in control and trying to be perfect. Since I have come to this "AHA" moment I have found my relationship with Christ growing, I have stopped worrying so much and doing so I have heard more clearly from God. So in my not so perfect life I have found happiness, and even more faith. I have found my perfect life and it is settling on the fact that I CAN NOT be perfect and I am okay with that.