Indian Missions Trip

So I submitted my application to go on the India Missions trip. I have had this overwhelming desire to go. I am a little fearful of the flight... okay alot but everytime I have flown I have been fine. I actually have to visualize myself getting on the plane a few times. I am not sure where the fear comes from, well I will be honest eversince Ryan (my ex) passed away I have fear of things I never feared. It is really weird I know, infact I hate it. I usually take an anti anxiety something before flying. I am not afraid of dying but I am afraid of leaving my girls behind. So anyways I dont want that fear to stop me from a life changing experience. I am not sure how in the world I will come up with the money...but I will. So please keep me in your prayers...pray that Gods will be done. Okay that was stupid, his will, will be done. Anyways if I am able to go..start praying that I wont have fear of the flight. The devil is somthing isint he, I mean who does he think he is. Here I am wanting to talk about the India trip and he has me starting to think about the flight and get fear set in.
So I have been on a missions trip before and it was to Mexico and I remember crying when it was time to come home. Although it was all poverty I wanted to stay. I remember we set out a bucket of apples for the kids and they were gone in no time and I remember telling my mom you know if we did that in America the bucket would sit there full. Then we had a bunch of ribbons and we didnt know what to do with it until someone said lets braid the girls hair and put ribbons in it, so we did. They loved it and were so proud. It was such an amazing experience and perfect for a 15 year old. It really showed me what life was about and how material things were just that materials with no substance. I encourge you to get involved volunteer somewhere, it does not have to be india or Mexico and can be at a local elementary school reading to kids. Just do it, trust me all are blessed in the situation.